Monday, May 9
sometimes when i think back, i realise that there are things i thought i'd forgotten, but are still there all the while. i know it seems stupid because its been so long since that incident.
when i realised that i hardly think of him now, i thought my goal was reached, i had forgotten him. but, reality check, the feeling is still there. there will always be a hole in my heart waiting for HIM to fill it up again. since the breakup, everyone thinks it'll just be a matter of time before i forget him. well, it looks like the time nvr came.
whenever i see him my heart skips a beat. its not very often that i get to "bump" into him. and whenever he smiles at me i just feel like i can melt right on the spot. those months with him were the best i ever had in my life. the post breakup was the worst period of time i had to go through. even though i was the one who initiated the breakup, i knew it had to be done sooner or later. even though breaking up was the last thing i ever wanted to do, i'd rather be hurt earlier, rather than let it drag on and hear it from his own mouth.
i wasnt so entu about that relationship then. i dont even knw when we broke up. i just lived for the moment. i just dont know why i cant let go. but everytime i see him, i just cant believe i'd once let him slip through my fingers. i once had him and i didnt know how to hang on to him. and when i think about the time when gab fell for him, i just feel like banging my head against the wall. just one phone conversation, just ONE PHONE CONVERSATION and all the complications started happening. but considering his character and everything, the breakup was bound to happen.
just feel so stupid to still be clinging onto him when there's no chance of us ever getting back together. though there are tons of guys out there who are better than him, i just feel i couldnt ever love anyone as much as i loved him. he's just.. different. i dont knw. he's sort of like my soul mate.
well. enough blabbering about him. its not gonna change anything anyway. he'll nvr take me back. guess i should be grateful for those couple of months i got with him.
/+vous ne pouvez pas perdre que vous n'aves jamais eu -`
when i realised that i hardly think of him now, i thought my goal was reached, i had forgotten him. but, reality check, the feeling is still there. there will always be a hole in my heart waiting for HIM to fill it up again. since the breakup, everyone thinks it'll just be a matter of time before i forget him. well, it looks like the time nvr came.
whenever i see him my heart skips a beat. its not very often that i get to "bump" into him. and whenever he smiles at me i just feel like i can melt right on the spot. those months with him were the best i ever had in my life. the post breakup was the worst period of time i had to go through. even though i was the one who initiated the breakup, i knew it had to be done sooner or later. even though breaking up was the last thing i ever wanted to do, i'd rather be hurt earlier, rather than let it drag on and hear it from his own mouth.
i wasnt so entu about that relationship then. i dont even knw when we broke up. i just lived for the moment. i just dont know why i cant let go. but everytime i see him, i just cant believe i'd once let him slip through my fingers. i once had him and i didnt know how to hang on to him. and when i think about the time when gab fell for him, i just feel like banging my head against the wall. just one phone conversation, just ONE PHONE CONVERSATION and all the complications started happening. but considering his character and everything, the breakup was bound to happen.
just feel so stupid to still be clinging onto him when there's no chance of us ever getting back together. though there are tons of guys out there who are better than him, i just feel i couldnt ever love anyone as much as i loved him. he's just.. different. i dont knw. he's sort of like my soul mate.
well. enough blabbering about him. its not gonna change anything anyway. he'll nvr take me back. guess i should be grateful for those couple of months i got with him.
/+vous ne pouvez pas perdre que vous n'aves jamais eu -`
michi ]|[ 10:59